This dilemma reminds me of my first massage. I put it off for years until a friend convinced me I needed to. I was so stressed I couldn't move my neck. I could no longer drive safely. So I decided to try a massage.
I, of course, worried - "what if...". What if I had an embarrassing reaction. What if it was weird.
I finally did. And after, I realized, it was a completely different context. The thought never crossed my mind.
Context is everything.