If you really knew me you would know that I:
Haven't had a drink for almost 7 years and my stop date was August 14th 2010.
I was 200 lbs 7 years ago.
I am the middle of 2 sisters, Liz and Kate and we get along OK. I make up that they still hold me to my past ways of being and I will tell you I find myself showing up bratty, irresponsible, and wanting to be right about how I THINK they perceive me to be. And I know it's not true. -but I make it be.
I make up that I love and give too much of myself, and so I am constantly feeling let down and playing victim because the reality is that I give too much of myself to the wrong people.
I really want to teach children about animals (cats and dogs) and art. Years ago I taught humane education to children at the animal shelter.
I've committed to is showing up and not letting anxiety and fear run me from new experiences and opportunities to meet new people. I am in service for that reason.
I'm terrified that I'll be alone the rest of my life but am stepping into the realization that if I surrender to my commitments, and push myself to me the best me, the nerdy Colleen can't sabotage me with the unworthy conversation and have me not be my word and dishonor my SELF.
I like to ride unicycles.
I'm silly and a clown and in the past I used it to hide, now I know there's an authenticity to it and I embrace it when I'm not in my nerd and when it's appropriate.
I bust out quick feet on command.
I play the piano every chance I can and my dream is to have a grand piano one day-and I improvise and it's meditation and release.
I have a scary good memory that's visual and photographic which serves me as well as holds me back because I miss steps and miss the details by seeing the picture in my mind. I want to be right about that being enough and I know it doesn't serve me. I have a hard time asking for support sometimes but I'm committed to having a breakthrough in being supported.
