I hear you! Understand what you are saying completely. On the other hand, I do miss working sometimes. Not the khakis and collared shirt work. I miss the the work I did before then. Not because it was easy, but because it was challenging. It was hard. It was something to be proud of most days. It gave me purpose. Purspoe is something I have been struggling with finding again for sometime now. Oh well. If I had your pad, I could probably find a purpose on that beach and in that surf for sure!