OP, if you’ve never heard of it, there is a sub for this sort of thing. It’s called /r/lastimages and you might find some solace and solidarity with others who know exactly what you’re going through.

Thank you for sharing this most personal moment, and know that your wife will continue to live on through you and those that knew her.

If I may be so bold, I want to share with you a quote:

> Of course I’ll hurt you. Of course you’ll hurt me. Of course we will hurt each other. But this is the very condition of existence. To become spring, means accepting the risk of winter. To become presence, means accepting the risk of absence.
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> Antoine de Saint-Exupéry