Burning the Candle

One of the things that's challenging is trying to do a vast number of things in a given day. Granted, I know that I can do all kinds of different things in a given day but some days, it feels like it's all falling apart at the seams lol.

With the additional work that I've been having to do for my job to get things back on track with the issues I've had recently, that meant I was completely putting off everything else that I had to do otherwise. This isn't a good scenario to be in and I know that I learned a lesson for sure. When you are bringing something live, the other things that aren't going live need to have the meetings and work cancelled for the week so I can focus. I wanted to see if I could handle it, and in the very beginning of the week it was going nicely and things were good! I felt positive for the week. Then all hell broke loose LOL

I guess it's good to be able to laugh at a scenario like this, I know many other people would cry and be panicking and freaking out. I think because of the work that I used to do, where it prepared me for some pretty crazy scenarios, I was able to manage my stress pretty well but what really got to me in the end, now that it's the weekend, is burning the candle at both ends. I would be working all day, doing family stuff after work and then when the little man went to sleep, I'd be working for another hour or 90 minutes at night before hopping onto Hive for some engagement and other fun activities.

This isn't very sustainable.. and I know other people in the world have it much worse but I feel for them and the need to have some semblance of a balance for these things.

Being Saturday evening while I'm writing this, one of the things that I know for sure is that I won't be able to manage this level of activity for several weeks at a time before I'm going to mentally crack. It's incredibly difficult and stressful to have this all going on and trying to do and plan other things in both my work and personal life. I love digging into the issues and certainly think I did a decent job at it but the long-term ability to do this just isn't there for the fact that I can't let my other stuff fall apart.

This is going to be a challenging next couple of weeks, and times that I am certainly not going to enjoy very much on the work front but I'm going to endure and give it my best shot. I know that I will definitely be looking to figure out how to sleep more and sleep better. I will definitely not be working every night after work for a few hours either, that really cuts into my wind-down time that I need in order to keep doing this. I know I'll likely have to work next week every night after work but I will hopefully be able to cut it off at that, and not continue it into the weekend and weeks ahead so that I can get back to a normal, albeit busier, life.

The thing that makes me laugh is so much of this is not my job, but it falls on my shoulders in the eyes of others so you have to suck it up and make sure that you do the best you can in the spotlight so that when the spotlight eventually gets turned off, you can bet your ass that you won't allow yourself to be put into another difficult situation like that again. I know for damn sure that I'm not going to fall on the sword like that again!