I am excited | Ecency

Hello, dear Steemians, who read this!

First, let me not apologize for my English, but tell you I am not a native speaker. But I do my best in showing my respect to the English language while writing this. I let go of all my fears about not having the perfect English skills. Instead, I follow my excitement and my curiosity. It's just much easier to connect to a geat, international community through the English language. To all the German, French, Slovakian, Dutch and Spanish speaking people reading this...

Ich grüß dich, salut, dobrý deň, goedendag and hola!

That's all I can scratch together.
The reason why I am so excited is: I just discovered Steemit. Well, to be honest, I didn't. My lovely partner @kemane introduced it to me. And I couldn't believe, that a fair and creative platform like this would exist. Here, I feel like every artist is being given the chance to be able to be as free and expressive in his creativity like he or she was as a child.

Me at age 10: Attempting to emulate a contemporary
self-image of magazine women

For me, it feels like that. And I compare it to a huge and colorful flea market. I tried to sell a lot of stuff on flea markets already. And even if there was not much financial outcome on every one, I loved the feeling of being free and able to sell my stuff without having to learn how to retail properly or without having to overcome a lot of bureaucratic borders. I could connect with people, speak to them and learn about me and others while gaining some income.

So here we are now

and I have this same feeling of being allowed to be a human being.

Without having to learn this and that or becoming a "finished" person. Because we are never finished, and this is what I learned. In the past, I tried hard to satisfy this illusion that was implanted by school and society. So I tried to study 3 majors; Journalism, English, and History. Not at the same time. I always gave up on one, as I felt it was just not working for me. However, I still wanted to become a "finished" person so I tried the next one. Soon I entirely gave up on the idea of studying on a university. I tried to learn the great and honorable profession of midwifery. After being traumatized by german hospital hierarchies I couldn't handle the 3 years of apprenticeship and gradually accepted my quirks.

I stopped forcing myself to fit in all of these formats
and just saw that I was whole already.

I saw, that I already made a living, working as an actress and voice actress , in theatre, tv, and film since I was 14. All of that without any official education. I just learned it by doing it, having fun. And the most important: Being excited and curious. So the best thing I could do is just to follow that feeling.

The first thing I did after this awakening, was making a baby.

Sorry, that sounds like I just had Sex. What I really mean, I consciously received my wonderful daughter. (to put things into perspective, you have to have sex for that, so of course. I had.)

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My daughter is now 2 years young, and I just turned 27

After the huge adventure of the last 2 years, where I experienced more than I can process: I feel, I'm ready to dive back into my creative space and share it with the world!

I am writing since I learned how to write. I wrote all kinds of stories. When I was around 20 I started to write poems, and I do it since then. Also in the beginning of my 20s, I started doing some poetry slam and experimented with different styles of writing. Currently, I'm blogging a lot about being a mother, a woman and traveling the world.