I was twelve but I was way too tall, more beautiful than my peers and I was approaching puberty faster. That was when it all started. When he called me to come sit on his lap. He has never done that until that day. He wasn't a stranger to me anyways. I said to myself.
When she warned me about other men, she never included him. She never told me how he could be part of them. She never told me that he could be the bigger threat. She was never at home. From one business trip to another. It was the beginning of my journey through this path. " Adanna.... as he fondly called me, you know you are very beautiful and you are becoming a woman. I was happy because that always got me presents from him each time he said that. So, i giggled and waited like an expectant mother. Are you expecting your friends today? I said no. Are you done with the house chores? I said yes.
Now stand up let me teach you something that she will never teach you. I love you and will always do. That is why I will always be here for you. Don't be shy, every girl at some point did this but only the smart ones keep their mouth shot. Now, I wasn't sure where he was driving at. "Take off your clothes". I reluctantly obeyed. "You see these tiny things on your chest, do not allow any boy to see it. If you see anything you ain't sure of, you should only trust me to share it with me. Now, if I don't play with them, they will never grow and your friends will laugh at you but don't worry, you'll like it. Just then, he undressed likewise and forced himself on me. I cried because we fought and he won. I cried because, she never told me he would do this to me. Maybe I would have prepared for it. I cried all the more. I thought I was wounded( yes I was) but he consoled me saying it was normal. He begged me not to say a word to anyone. He begged me that it was all manipulations from the devil. I was helpless and I was confused".
How could I have known that my father was possessed? How could I have known that mum wasn't at home and wouldn't be for two weeks? How can I explain this to everyone that he raped me? Who would believe that? She wouldn't. Maybe she will but how do I bring myself into telling her that? He introduced me into the world of sex and I stayed perfectly ever since. It started with rape and graduated into a way of life. I became addicted. At sixteen, I became wiser and stronger, couldn't count the number of abortions. He died two years after. It sure didn't kill him but I know it made him not live longer. Mum equally joined him out of frustration. I dropped out of school. I never saw it as been necessary. I wanted money but I loved the sex more. Sometimes, they will come and I give it out even better than the other girls will.
You see this house, the car, even the millions I operate in, they came out of appreciation of this talent of mine. Now I live a comfortable life but sex is the air I breathe. Don't stand there and speak to me about Salvation. Until you find something better, I'm not giving up on this one.
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