... be the one that was more in it than the other person. I was always trying to be what I thought that person wanted. I would tighten my grip on the relationship or whatever it was because I thought that would make them stay longer and whatever we had last longer.
All I wanted was to feel loved and I was sacrificed what I actually needed to feel the smallest amount of anything. I was confused and anxiety, i felt uncomfortable to be my truest self. They weren’t meant for me and I knew it deep down, but it’s a hard pills to swallow when you’re in the thick of it.
What I’ve known now is that It doesn’t matter how tightly you hold on to certain people because at the end of the day, what is meant for you will always be yours. The right person will choose you just as deeply as you choose them. You will not have to beg for the love you deserve. You will not have to quiet the way your heart beats against your chest.
One day you will be someone’s favourite things and you will not be confused, you will not feel like you’re fighting for someone who is not fighting for you.
One day. You will understand that it never mattered how hard you held on to the wrong things, how much you tried, because the right things were always unfolding before you.
The right things were always choosing to stay.
