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Hello fellow Hivians

I wasn't sure if I should even write about this, but here we are. It wasn't easy to write about this.
When you drink alcohol it is not a problem in general but there are circumstances when it will become a problem quite easily.

I remember a time in my life many years ago when I was so unhappy. Unhappy with me, with my job, my life and everything. I felt depressed and sad and thought the whole world would have something against me. And I was drinking a lot which made it even worse. The alcohol helped to wash and dull the pain and sadness a bit but when you slowly get sober it gets worse. All the problems are back and you feel like a failure. We all know this! I don't know how I got out of this, but I did. At some point I was so sad and thought I should end my life or change it for good. I thought I can't do it like this anymore. Something in my brain made click and I started with a happier life. Depression is almost gone but some rare days I get a dark feeling and I know it's still there in one corner of my mind. Luckily that is not very often.

But this isn't actually what I wanted to write about. I just wanted to make clear that I know the danger of alcohol especially when you are sad and depressed.

I want to talk about my beloved brother. He is one year younger than I am. He is now at a point to go to rehab and I'm happy that he noticed himself that he needs help. Most time people ignore the problem and addiction and you can say whatever you want, they wont believe you. They will blame and scream at you. Once someone realizes that he has an addiction or problem with alcohol it is so much easier to help him. So my brother gets help soon. How did he got here? I can tell just from my point of view.

I would say it started way back when our parents divorced. My brother went with my mother and I stayed with my stepfather. My brother met new bad friends at the railroad station and also was a hooligan. I learned later what it mean to be categorized as C. At this time, it was just bad influence from bad friends. Sure, he already drunk alcohol but not that much I would say. Somehow he got out of this but it took a while.

He met his first wife which was a fury. She was nothing what I would call a wife. There was no support from here and she even hit my brother by car after an argument. She got pregnant, got that kid and wanted a divorce. That's okay but doing everything that the father can't see and spend time with the kid, is not okay. Even the Youth Welfare Office said if the mother cancel all the appointments, they can't do anything. I remember how he cried often because he could not see his child. He drunk often at this time.

Then he met his second wife who already had 3 kids from another man. She got pregnant too and things got worse. He had a hard time there and of course he drunk. Long story short, they divorced and he could not see his kid from this wife either. I can't even imagine how painful that must be.
He still managed his life and worked at this point but was drinking a lot.

He found another women and things went south. He was nearly angry and sad all the time and his life got finally out of control. One day he tried to kill himself because of lovesickness. I was shocked when my mother told me this. He said later he wont do it again but still was drinking like crazy.

Then one day he asked my mother for help. She went with him to a clinic and was shocked when she heard how much alcohol was in his blood, because he was talking and walking normal. It did not worked at this point but today I have good feelings about this. He gets new teeth now and he wants to turn things around. Friday is the appointment for the dentist. They way he told me all that at our last call, makes me believe.
Next month he is going to the rehab and I wish him all the best and power to do this.