It's cold outside
and sometimes I have to be cold with you
to cope with the true persona when you awaken
is it your true persona?
or do you just want me cold with the breeze of a distance
sometimes the best I can be is just here in existence
my goals are just to make it
to gain some sort of routine where I breathe without my heart racing
without wondering if your footsteps behind me will be followed by an unsound
accusation
what have I done for you lately?
what have I done?
I am just stepping forward onto stones of age trying not to trip over myself
I am just trying to be a version of myself I can be proud of
And yes I fail, I fail often and I fail again.
I move on and I wake awake with a new day
a new sunrise hitting my backside and I try again
This is how I am
Will you look at me?
And if you do will you really see?
that I am just a human crawling toward normalcy
Because I can only write when I am angry
So I Thank you
Enjoy the coffee