Sunday
I have let myself get overwhelmed by negative thoughts.
These thoughts are in sharp contrast to what I'm feeling/sensing 馃槩
How did it happen?
It has been over a month since I've seen Cathrine. And I can tell you, I miss her like the plants miss rain after a dry year.
Yes, it is a long time without seeing the person you love, but I also knew why. And I should have stuck to that!
Instead I let myself become effected in a negative way.
And the worst part. I acted on it.
FUCK!!
I should have just stayed right where I was.
The beacon.
The light house.
BUT, unfortunately I was too influenced by others, and I acted on it.
It was rash - far from thought through.
This resulted in my entire Sunday being absolutely trash.
I forced myself out for walks, trying to clear my mind. That didn't go according to plan.
Even the weather could feel how sad I was - or at least it felt like it.
It was raining most of the time I was out. As soon as I was inside, there was no rain.
On my second walk, it took a little while.
I was honestly just about to cry while I was walking. And I am not one to show emotions - especially not in public. The not-showing part has improved since April (dammit, that reminds me that's the month Cathrine has her birthday.. everything reminds me of her).
Anyway, that was a side track - on that seconds walk, 7 minutes in or so, it started pouring down.
How I wish I could undo that act.
Please, allow me just one ctrl + z!
I did do a few pictures on my walks. And I was thinking, in my "quiet" mind, that I'd love to share those with.... her!
the beginning of the first walk began sunny
a while it it was wet and raining
started great... ended in a massive rainfall
Thank you for reading!
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