My biggest regret in life... it's so painful that i cannot even bear to give a full detail about it. Anytime I think about it, I just shake my head, place a hand on my chest to ease the pain I feel and try to push it back to bottom part of my memory.
My biggest regret in life... I spent 5 years of my life, loving the wrong person in the right way. I gave my all, my time, my money, my self-esteem. I was ready to go to the ends of the earth for him. I believed his lies for years even when my instincts kept telling me not to. He would cheat on me several times and I'll still forgive and continue, always making up excuses for his attitude. He insults me and my family at any slight chance.
He had no job, no money, no home. I never minded but tried my best to provide for him, with hope that tomorrow will be better. Whenever he knows I have money, he professes love. Once it is finished, I become good for nothing.
I tried to be strong several times and walk away, i knew i deserved better, i knew people would line up to have this love i was giving, i wanted to leave before i lose my esteem. But his pleas found a way to melt my anger. Until the last straw came and i told him I hate him and meant it. I walked away, cried for days and asked God to visit me.
