Thanks for the real talk, it's gratefully received. Too many people think you need a pat on the back when it's best to just be real with people and be honest.

I haven't been to any meetings yet, don't think they're for me also but I'll not rule them out. I'm lucky enough to have got into a solid routine with exercise, diet, self-care etc. which has really kept me going. Just got to keep your mind on the type of person you want to become