After the huge failure recently with the chicken farm I haven't been myself lately emotions not being controlled properly and im not sure what im doing anymore.
I have so much has work but I can't seem to force myself to move anymore. Tried to meet a friend for 2 days but the conversations doesn't fix my problem.
So im going to do what I did when I had a bad depression when covid hits. That time lost my job and everyone was stealing from me around me because well I'm good at saving money but seems like im throwing at the wrong people all the time.
Anyway so I need to do fix myself fast
I need to talk long walks the moment I wake up, exercise anything that move the body and dont stay put
Make sure to get morning sun 🌄
Water 💧 drink lots of water no coffee no sweet stuff
Eat real food no crap like instant noodle which I dont eat anymore of those anyway but need to remind myself to make sure eat and drink clean.
Less phone more writing ✍️ I need to start writing again here or where ever doesnt matter but write more i stopped writing ever since I finish my contract in dubai. Really should have stayed there
Of course the high pressure life and work place in dubai is crazy but the money was worth it im just stupid starting a huge business without knowing the monopoly of my own country. Everyone has groups some follow color of your skin. Some religious group, so many of them i never understand why we need to use race and religion for business but again that's just how the world works i have to pick a lane.
Really dont like picking a lane i always thought oh we are countrymen so we should all help each other yea I know my way of thinking like a 7 year old I should not be this naive at this age but yea wishful thinking is the worse enemy.
Well i guess that's it just need to remove all this thoughts in my head I need to relax and calm down a lot of people are trying to help me but I guess I am in deep financial trouble so I need to figure this out ASAP.
First time in my life I have this problem didn't expect business is the one that can break me this badly.
Well time to go to bed see you all next time.
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