하지만 너도 나이를 먹고 자라고 변하겠지. 그런데 정말 솔직히 말하면 난 그게 겁나. 뭐든 변하는게 싫거든. 내가 이러고 있는 이유도 그거 같아. 변하는 걸 막아보려고 시간을 되돌리려고 다시 예전으로 돌아가게 해보려고. 순진한 생각인 걸 알아.
삶은 그렇게 작동하지 않으니까. 삶은 움직이지. 그래, 때로는 고통스럽고 때로는 슬프고. 그래 때로는 놀랍고 행복하지.
그래서 말인데, 계속 자라다오. 내가 막지 못하게 해. 실수하고 거기서 배워. 삶이 널 아프게 하면. - 분명히 그럴거거든 - 그 아픔을 기억해. 아픔은 좋은거야.
I know this is a difficult conversation but I care about you both very much and I know that you care about each other very much and that’s why it’s important that we set these boundaries moving forward so we can build an environment where we all feel comfortable, trusted and open to sharing our feelings. The truth is for so long I’d forgotten what those even were. I’ve been stuck in one place, in a cave you might say, a deep dark cave. And then I left some Eggos out in the woods and you came into my life. For the first time in a long time, I started to feel things again. I started to feel happy. But lately, I guess I’ve been feeling distant from you, like you’re pulling away from me or something. I miss playing board games every night, making triple decker Eggo extravaganzas at sunrise, watching westerns together before we doze off.
But I know you’re getting older, growing, changing, and I guess, if I’m being really honest, that’s what scares me. I don’t want things to change. So I think maybe that’s why I came in here, to maybe try and stop that change. To turn back the clock, to make things go back to how they were. But I know that’s naïve. It’s just not how life works. It’s moving, always moving, whether you like it or not. And yeah, sometimes it’s painful. Sometimes it’s sad. And sometimes it’s surprising, happy. So you know what? Keep on growing up, kid. Don’t let me stop you. Make mistakes, learn from them and when life hurts you – because it will – remember the hurt. The hurt is good. It means you’re out of that cave. But please, if you don’t mind, for the sake of your poor old dad, keep the door open three inches.
아픔은 좋은거야.
