Yah hope...the asshole hope we all need. I agree with your post. I even fought my own inner mental war and still am. The last 2 years had me lose everything in my terms, and it wasn't the first time I had to start from scratch. The cycles you described are true. Human nature is true, yet disturbing. In all of us exists hate. But also love. Which side will "win"...none I suppose. It's a vicious cycle lol.