Ummmm, really hard to unpack this. You seem to conflate God with Daddy.
It seems you need to speak with both much more.
This times is the change that everyone has been waiting for.
Beings were paying anything to get a front row seat to this. (this was just a figure of speech, but there is only so many spots available for incarnation)
When you get done with this life, and walk through that door into the MORE and get connected with your higher self and God, you will probably be begging to get reincarnated again. This is the most thrilling ride out there, in the most thrilling time.
That said, i can understand how painful it is right now.
When the evil is turned up to 11.
And it is darkest right before the dawn.
From a galactic soul level, you will incarnate into a life where you have a lot of emotional pain, abuse and hardship so that you can know, first hand, how to empathize with people in similar situations. From a human point of view, THIS SUCKSSSSSSS!!!!
When you talk to God about incarnating, he carefully, and for as long as it takes, listens to you and everything you want, desire, complain about. There are teams of beings who work tirelessly to work out when and where you will be born, to whom, and the interactions you will have with important (to you) people. God will never insist that you incarnate. It is all your choice. Completely your choice. Like, we don't know what freedom is, your choice.
The real problem (it is a feature) is that incarnation on this planet, their is a veil. We forget who we are (a piece of God) and we forget our connection to God/Goddess/All That Is. This is all hidden behind a veil. At any moment, you can brush the veil aside. But, it has to be consciously done by you. This your game your playing. Your turn on the rolly coaster.
God has so much love for you. I caught a glimpse of it, and got scared, ran and hid under my bed.
Imagine a tidal wave, sitting outside your door, waiting politely to come in. A little seeps under the door, and we think that is all the love we will get.
Be well
RE: If there is reincarnation, I don't think I wanna