Unfortunately, this strikes a nerve.

It is not because i haven't read. It is not because i haven't tried my hardest to explain things.
All my life i have been in a position of trying to explain what doesn't exist and the impossible.

It has left me feeling useless. Not smart enough.
And my brain loses words.
Try as i might.

It is like trying to talk about bitcoin 20 years ago.

Can't even talk about solutions yet, can only talk about talking about the problem and pointing out problems with current paradigms and thinking.