What is a weekend?

The best i can say is that i took a long nap after getting the first half of my work done.
Ahhh sweet dreams.

But, what i wanted to comment on is that you are probably running into walls because you are going the wrong way.

And its a pain in the butt to say, or think... i have planned out my life so well, why can't i go this way?

What if at the end of last year i told you to sell all your stock because of Covid?
It would be excellent advice, but it is almost useless to you last year.
"What the hell is a Covid?"
"Why is it going to cause the market to crash?"

But, today, you would see that getting out of the market into cash may have been a good idea, but you never could have planned for it.

Now, in Australia it is winter, and its going to be long and cold.
And then, the summer is going to come. And with it, more fires.
It will be a yearly event going forward.

So, if you have a house out in the bush, clear a LARGE area around it, and then put trenches around that. Pile the dirt dug to the outside, so as you create a place where animals and people can hunker down and avoid the worst of the blaze.

Install wells everywhere. Not for clean water, but for any water to battle the embers that come into your ring.

A new industry that will come up in Australia is "fire netting".
Kinda like the screen you put in front of a fire place to keep embers from jumping out and catching the house on fire.
I think it will be a knit anodized aluminium wire.

And this fire netting will be erected over structures when fire season comes.
Probably a pole and cable arrangement with a winch to haul it all up.

So, maybe the obstruction in your way, is your subconscious trying to tell you that your goal is now out of alignment with your new reality.