Today I decided to take a more freestyle format and recorded a video of myself singing a cover of Scared to Be Lonely by Dua Lipa and Martin Garrix in the car. This song moves me for some reason. It itself poses such a philosophical question: why do we actually stay in relationships? Is it love… or the fear of being alone? I think that many people, without even saying it out loud, enter relationships for very different reasons. Sometimes it's because we're afraid of being different, or we're afraid of being alone, or we're afraid of how society perceives us, because being alone is almost considered a failure. But all of this is a kind of benefit and has nothing to do with love. I myself have never been in a relationship, because of the fear of being alone. But I've had other traumas, for example, I was made to believe in mutual magic, and then suddenly, for absolutely unknown reasons, it was broken, I was given a very big crack. Just the opposite side, it was clearly communication for selfish purposes, in particular, attempts to use and absolutely reduce the value of a person to a gender with certain physical data. And let's get back to the song, although this song is not about some kind of grief, for some reason it brought me to tears, I noticed it in the middle of the song, and I was very afraid that it would ruin the recording. There is no obvious reason, because I say this does not specifically resonate with my life experiences. Maybe because the melody is melancholic, or I don't know...
In any case, some factors of this song awaken something in the soul and touch the soul. I tried to convey the melody as best I could, I practiced singing this song into the microphone many times. but especially the intermediate passages with "we are afraid to be alone" in some places the melodies were mixed up😂
maybe I was very worried because I had tears in my eyes, and that's why I mixed them up. But I'm saying that there wasn't such an emotional version of singing, well, it's something new and not typical for me❤️
I also want to add that every time I try to vote for the winners in a contest I simply can never decide cause I usually like several posts very much. I dealing very good with the problem of choice. I just looked through all the posts many times and in the end I wanted to vote for all of them😅 that's why you can never see me on the ballot.
Btw, thanks for organizing a wonderful contest, here's the original post
