This time of year is a time of looking back for me. It's the time five years ago when I moved to the city I live in now. It's the time of Yogi Bhajan's birthday where we Kundalini Yogis get together and meditate for two and a half hours at 3:30 am. What I experience in that meditation tells me a lot about where I've been in a year. But in this particular August I came back to Steemit to start posting again and I saw my first posts on Steemit. I made $95 on my first article! I deposited the Steem I got into bitcoin and had my first investment! (That's pretty pathetic for 35, I know.) About $100 turned into ~ $350 - $400! But that's besides the point, what I'm getting at is what I was talking about, how I was talking about it, and what was important to me. It was all about Anarchism, and I was just beginning to come out of my anger. Anarchism was an outlet for my anger and disillusionment at the world. I loved talking about it. I loved shocking people, and people find Anarchy shocking. I loved being sassy. When I first started writing about Anarchism on here is the same time that I started realizing I needed to take my focus off Anarchism (what everyone else was doing) and put all my focus on myself where my real power is. (Still an Anarchist by the way. :) )
So I just went and explored my inner realm for a good while. But when it was time to express myself again I came back to Steemit. Because Steemit is a handy way to express yourself. Then in the last couple of weeks I've found that after my morning yoga practice I wanted to write. This writing comes from a totally different place. And now I allot myself as much time as I want after my yoga practice for creativity, whether it be writing on here or putting together my workshop.
Last year at this time it was about if people cared about what I was saying. It was about making my articles attractive to people. Branding. Now it's about a place for me to express myself. People may or may not read it. It will make it into the hands of the people who need it. Maybe it will make it into their hands now, maybe years from now. I don't have any expectations out of what I'll get from putting something on here. I just enjoy putting stuff on here, and that's all that matters to me.
I could go on about the ways I've changed in the last year, but nothing has shown me how much I've changed like coming back to Steemit has. One of the most interesting things about life is the passing of time. How we're changing every day, every second even. But the passing of time makes the change seamless. And we don't notice just how profoundly we've changed and grown.
It feels like I was literally a different person a year ago. In many ways I am. A lot of my cells are new. My way of being in the world is totally different. My relationship with myself is very different. It feels like every year the change accelerates and I change and grow more and more drastically. I can't even imagine where I'll be a year from now.
