I have neglected my duty on here. I blame it on my period......
It came early, and I am on track with hating my life and wanting to die. We got into an argument about social media. It's silly I Know, but I engage. He's upset that I am still on another platform... he tells me that the people there are vapid.... I'm there so i take his words to heart. My honey thinks I'm vapid, so I take a step back and escape into my shell. I'm bleeding and hate life. With this period BRAIN OF MINES, the only option I see is dying. We argue, I tell him the only reason he's on here is to flex his muscles, you see no one can fuck with him, not even me. I'm sad he does not realize how much his words affect me. It's friday, I get my beer and try to cope. i FEEL GUILTY. meh. at the end of the DAY i LOVE HIM. he's my rock. I can't live without him by my side. I hate having this shit happen to me. I don't like an aspect of myself garnering all my control. I get quiet..... ugh being a woman sometimes sucks.