That's an interesting revelation. I think it's okay to realize that certain lifestyles aren't quite for you anymore. At the very least it's good to acknowledge it isn't something you want to do every day. It's like that Toby Keith song I'm not as good as I once was. We can be good once though and go hard! Being social is hard for me, alcohol definitely helps, but rather than drinking all the time I just have barely any friends... Maybe also not that healthy... Sorry, I am rambling!