I read this yesterday and was wondering if I wanted to comment on your post.

I always enjoy reading your posts and just wanted to say it's good to let things out, either online or to your family or friends. Also, don't be afraid to ask for help and remember you are only one person.

It looks like you are more mentally exhausted then physically exhausted. So maybe it's best to just take a step back and do something for yourself, not for everybody else.

Take care and stay safe!