Somewhere among all the ruckus ongoing, I long for a quite and calm hiatus. One that resets the jigsaw my mind has become. I want to feel the wind blowing, chase it's direction with my eyes. I want the dark sky take away all of the darkness in my veins with it, and fill me up with the bright energy of the stars. I want to sit alone and undisturbed on the edge of the cliff overlooking a never ending starry night sky. I want to be segregated from all that separates me from appreciating the dirt under my soles. I want to be taken away, far away from myself, just to remember ,for even a second what calmness felt like.
I want to be shot down and I want to ricochet back up. I want myself to believe again. I want to remember what Mr. Blind was like. I want the breath of fire reignited in my soul. I want to feel the energy. The undying drive of becoming better every single day and heading inevitably towards becoming unstoppable. I want to be the bullet proof glass I always was. I want to be born again, this time a bit morealive and a little less dead inside.
I want to create a universe where we hold hands and do not fear. Where we lock eyes and are not scared. I want to live where we do not feel insecure, we are will remain for each other. I want to see the sunsets together and wait for the sunrise by each other. I want to create a galaxy where we never have to stuble upon a hiccup, just relish in a happy bubble that we made together.
Often we lose faith in what matters the most and divert to what will eventually leave a scar. But what is to regret? There is only to learn. Look, aim, fire! Do not blink. Do not look down. Do not shiver in anxiety. Stay steady and pray the wind doesn't turn. Having faith is important. But even God has said do not expect results when all you do is pray.
Put the work in. Pray. Put the work in, again. That's the recipe. If you don't help yourself why would God? God is a great excuse for failures, and hardwork an important stepping stone for success. How convenient.
When this storm calms down, there will be nothing except results. Results that will depend on how excellent your blueprint was, how well you designed, and how faithfully did you execute it.
Look. Aim. Fire. Success is waiting. You can do it. I can do it. We all can.
