You are absolutely right about people not adopted can't begin to understand the thoughts that go thru ones head not knowing why you were left behind, who are you really, what do they look like, do relatives know about your existence, how about other siblings... the questions are endless. I don't give it much thought anymore, maybe I'm afraid of the answers, maybe just never wanted to know me. I never tried all that hard either, just lived my life and moved on for the most part. I did briefly meet my biological father once when I was 8 or 9 but nothing ever came of it.

You KNOW. I didn't work all that hard at it, really. I'd go years between efforts. My adoptive brother did the birth certificate thing before me and sent me the necessary paperwork to complete it. His story didn't play as well as mine, unfortunately.

I made peace with the whole thing years ago. I just have a curious nature and that's all that kept me going, not some pressing need to know. It was curiosity that prompted me to spit in the test tube to begin with, I really didn't even consider that it might be a pathway to my family.