After months of planning and preparation, I'm pleased to say that we have now been officially granted passage into the UK. It's so nice to have finally completed this move and take one step towards our future.
I thought I'd be ecstatic after receiving the good news but instead, I was jolted with a mixture of feelings. All the feelings were positive but most came with a hint of pensiveness that has encapsulated my mind.
I'm happy that we have gotten to this point. Moreso because I put all my resources and assets towards this cause but at the end of the day, this is just a step.
It's interesting to note that after all this effort and spending, all we have done is gained safe passage into another country. It's a realization that we have not reached the end of the journey, we are simply starting it.
After two years together, we are actively going to start chasing after stability and will be carving our own path in this world. Well, we have already started it but this move feels like there's so much riding on it, so the pressure is higher.
The few people I have told about it congratulated me and celebrated. Actually, we also celebrated it for a moment and just like our minds were in unison, we both plummeted into a sober reflective mood.
After taking a moment from reality to celebrate, we headed straight back into pensiveness and have been brainstorming since then. Everything from the travel itinerary to our plans for getting the right accomodation has to be sorted out.
It feels like everything from here onward has to be executed perfectly or else we'll fail. It is so much more pressure than I'm used to handling but that's a good thing.
One of my guiding principles in life is to ensure that my "problems" are getting bigger every day. Only dead people have no problems, the living always have to contend with one issue and as you grow in life, your problems grow with you.
When you were a kid, your problem was squeezing out a couple of bucks to buy a video game, now you need a few thousands to pay rent. Taking on more responsibility means you have more problems to tackle and every time you overcome them, you only meet bigger challenges.
The bigger the challenge, the bigger the effort required and this amounts into strength. The way I see it, this is just a new challenge for me that will open doors to even bigger and more rewarding challenges.
I'm pensive and bothered but in a good way. I'm excited about the challenges I'm going to face in the short and long term.
I'm anxious but not afraid of anything ahead of me. In the words of our new President, I'm going to hit the ground running and keep running.