At times i do ask myself why do i have to keep working; am I in pursuit of a better life? But what is a better life? Having Cars, condos, cash? Does having these things truly mean anything. I dont have it quite figured out yet. Many times i dont bother with the “why” anymore and just do. A loss of a loved one will never be easy and you have to give yourself time. Sadly we all have to keep working in order to live. I wish you all the best.