I know, I've mostly been doing highlights over this first weekend of 2026 but I swear, this is the last for 2025 XD
And might I add, 2025 was just so wild! I have experienced some of the happiest moments I ever could, as if they were dream come trues but also some of the saddest moments that made me wish I could just stop living. Last year has really tested my patience, my tolerance and my boundaries for a lot of things. But what came out of it was maybe a renewed sense of self. A better insight on myself. Maybe a better understanding as to why people seek help from therapy and why it does help if you're just as willing to help yourself too.
Needless to say, I wanted to highlight some of my activities per month and I probably will do this regularly now instead of just randomly popping in and out like a wild mushroom. So here goes my monthly highlights of 2025:
January
This was one of the dream-like months I had. I thought everything was going well and good, me and my college bestie went drinking, I got to see my high-school bestie and go to a concert with her and I got to meet my then long distance boyfriend after 2 or so years of dating LDR and 4 years of just being art friends. Everything was perfect and everything really did feel like all my dreams were coming true. I was so hopeful in January, honestly.
February
February just extended the dream. I got to go back to baguio, although some activities I usually did there were things I couldn't do because of a festival schedule, but it didn't matter. I got to see my then-boyfriend in so many different ways outside of the screen. Work wasn't that bad yet. It was still tolerable even without the lab grandmas that kept watch over me, though it was a huge adjusted to me when I had to wake up to reality. I remember, in the middle of february, I started job hunting like a mad man, desperate to get out of here so I could live with my ex. Maybe this was the part where it started to fall apart. But I did find joy in running and I tried visiting more art galleries as a way of self-soothing and still giving myself the self-care I needed.
March
March, The highlight here was me trying to cheer myself up by indulging in books again. We went to the book fair, me, my sister's and my cousins. But early that year, my cousin on mom's side also took me out on a coffee date just to hang out and catch up for some much needed therapy-yapping session. And it was still a nice month. I was getting rejection letters left and right but I was still pretty hopeful then, my ex and I made a tradition of watching movies every weekend or every other weekend as a way to date long distance. I think even with how depressing that month was starting to get, I would still go back to any of the early months just to feel everything again because my happiness then was still something I would want again.
April
April was when I saw the mega Pikachu and the little pop up Pokémon bazaar in one of the malls near work ^^ I almost got lost going back but I got to see so much Pokémon merch. Sad they still didn't have enough of the mimikyuu merch I wanted. April was also when I went to see my high-school best friend, focused on a hobby, tried starting a business and switched up my digital drawing style. I think this was all in a bid to distract myself because I was fully aware that I was starting to get more and more hopeless with a lot of things.
May
May may have been the months where my depression was at its peak. I remember relapsing so bad that I went non-contact with a lot of people, deleted soc med and just generally tried to get started on therapy because it was just that bad. I recognized that I may have heavy codependency and that I have a lot to work on because my hurt also hurt my ex then and I didn't know that this was just the start of me acting up that badly. But despite all that, I almost resigned frim my company in pursuit of a new workplace. Unfortunately I was persuaded by a counter offer while we were at a water theme park. Not really the best place to talk about careers, but oh well.
June
By June I thought the year would finally change for me and I was really hopeful then too. Got stuff ready for the mine site, got my finances in order so I could prioritize saving when I started earning bigger and already bookmarked a few other things. I really thought the rest of the months would go smooth from that point on, but no, not really. I was so happy when we went out to this new mall near the house too and had fun in this pretty flower cafe. I was so hopeful that month would be my turning point.
July
July came, floods came, my sister's graduation came, me and my ex were starting to have a few misunderstandings because of my needs and because of his schedule when he decided to move back to the province then when something also happened with his side of the family and I couldn't support him. But it's life.
August
August came and we agreed on a break. And I agreed to go with my lab grandpas for a beach trip because I couldn't afford to go on that Singapore trip with my college bestie that year. And while I was at the beach, I was just eating and drinking my sorrows away because a lot happened all leading up to August and a lot happened that really tested my patience and tolerance.
September
For September, I decided to do things alone. It might not have been the best all the time because I got into an accident, but overall, it was alright. I got to go to a book fair and do a mini book haul and I got to go hiking alone and it was just so fun. I would do these things again when I can.
October
October may have been my most eventful month because my sister was here and we were basically going out every few days, and all my weekends then were booked XD We went to an amusement park, went on a night walk in one of the most haunted places in manila and also went island hopping in cebu. It was a really fun month for sure and I had a lot of reasons to skip work and I think that may have been the mosg distracting month for me.
November
By November, I told myself I would keep my finances in check again because I spent so much over October XD but oh well. I did meet Missy and did end up as a volunteer at the cat shelter I took Missy to. It was a peaceful November for me UwU Also tried volunteering for a coastal clean up drive, and I think I'll try participating again this year.
December
I didn't really do much aside from going out to a food market with my high-school best friend and also, we had the year ender party at the company.
Aside from that , I also got into tarot so if anybody wants to volunteer to help me practice, now is the time to speak up XD but I probably will offer readings every now and then because why not? Maybe every full moon or so so the energy is high. Too bad I didn't do readings this full moon, I was still sick for it.
So that basically sums up my 2025 and if you made it this far, thank you for reading!
