Hello hiver’s family, I'm newbie here,Good day everyone. It’s me Bernadeth Zaballero, you can called me Bern, Deth or Badeth for short. I’m 34 yrs. old, living in a peaceful province found in Mindanao, it’s a small island called MYSTICAL ISLAND PROVINCE OF LOVE Dinagat Island. I’m the second of four siblings; we lived in a simple life. My mother and father sold various goods to support us siblings. Despite the hardships, we all graduated from college,with the help also of my loving aunt.
I graduated in Bachelor in Science in Hotel and Restaurant Management last 2012. But sadly to say after I graduated I got pregnant I did get even a change to work, I become a full time mama until now. When I saw many woman in my age or younger than me who’s successful in their life I’m so jealous that they can do whatever they want, they can buy anything without worrying or budgeting their money. I’m so disappointed to myself because I only put myself first. I didn't even appreciate the sacrifice of the people who educated me. I’m feeling useless, I should be the one who give the needs of my parents right now but sometimes they are the one who give when we have nothing. I’m blessed to have a parent that always here for us.
I hoping soon I am the one who give everything for them, not to pay but to feel them that I appreciated and i love them so much. And I do my best to make this all possible.
But this is the life I choose for more than 12 years, and now I want to change it for the better of my family. I did not regret for being a mother because this is what God’s plan, my children are the best treasured I have. Being a full time mom is a hard, facing this hardships lack of financial budget. There are times that I want to end my life,I wish to vanish in this world, I feel like I haven't done anything right in this world, it's just full of problems. But my mom always reminds me that no matter what trials in life throws at you, you can overcome them as long as you believe in the higher power, surrender your problems to Him, because giving up is not a solution. I have children whom I need to pay attention to and value. So no matter what trials and hardships I face in life right now, I need to be strong for the family I created. Im lucky to have this a ability in cooking and baking its help us a lot during financial budget strick,especially now the wage of my husband is not enough for us, sometimes the salary is delayed for almost two months. What I did is I sell different kind of viands, frozen food, crop plants like banana, sweet potatoes, sweet corn, cassava, cooked snacks like grilled banana, camoteque, hotcake (pancake) and I try also selling ukay ukay (secondhand cloth) and more just to meet our daily needs. It's stressful to think about what you should do the next day. I have 5 beautiful children,3 of them are studying in elementary level,my 4th children is now a pre-schooler, their need for everyday is additional to think off. But I’m so blessed my family and my husband family is there for us to help us in difficult time. I know God is with us always. Our sacrifice will be paid off one day.
My husband is a mechanical engineer currently working as a casual worker in Department of Agrarian Reform as Auto Cad operator. Recently he is part of Split Project of DAR as a Processor. Way back my husband is an ex oversea worker, working in Saudi last 2013 until May 2016.He decided to pursue his dream to became a mechanical engineer. I’m so blessed to have a husband that no bad habit. He is responsible father and husband to us.
Lastly, Im so thankful that asianhive community created,thank you ms.antonette for on boarding me in this platform at first when I saw a post of Miss 
Note: some picture is edit by Canva.
