What do you do when you in tough times?
Everyone have sad, terrible experiences that they couldn't stand any more.
Of course I do as well. The bereavement of my family, the break up with my bf, the time when I realized my best efforts are ineffectual and so on.
When I'm in such times, I always draw something mindlessly and unconsciously.
It has been making my feelings better and calming down since I was child.
Drawing always helps me, however, I used to let it down when I was junior high school student.
There was a boy who also likes drawing in my class.
The quiet, shy boy always drew especially manga at a class room.
Though I really wanted to become a friend with him to share our works and talk about drawings, some class mates including my friends ware talking behind his back like " He is a nerd! " ”An introverted person!"
I never agreed with them but I couldn't talk back to them anything because of my coward mind.I didn't want them to talk about me the same way.
Then I decided to keep it secret from my class mates that I like drawing, too, and eventually I had quit it for years.
Then more than ten years later, now, I have restarted drawing after all.
I knew it from the first that drawing is essential of my life but I pretended not to know.
I always cared what others think. How stupid I was.
I regret not to talk to him anything at that time.
Drawing always reminds me of him.
I want to be a person like him who was his own person no mutter what.
I hope he still has been keeping drawing and become a great artist somewhere in the world.
And I want to tell him " I LOVE YOUR WORKS!"