Being a doctor is like taking a big responsibility which need lots of time and hard work. To be a good doctor I need to study a lot correctly and any wrong information collected in my mind and can bring a big tragedy. In Bangladesh some people now days don’t study that hard to become a doctor they just do it for the certificate and some are seen with fake certificate later on patients suffer. Anyways, I don’t wanna be one of them. I also, have seen doctors are taught to have no compassion and empathy towards the patients. Everyone is always focusing on the money more than the sick patients. I do appreciate and respect the doctors and there are many good doctors but it seems very hard to me I this field.
But my grandmother has always pressurised my father for that. Grandmother wants me to become a surgeon doctor. I have studied in science section and I am always good at biology so, there is facilities for me to pursue. But whenever, I see blood I feel bad I can’t bear to see anyone bleeding. I can’t think of cutting someone it gives me goosebumps. When my father had done his surgery after seeing his huge line of cut on stomach which made me cry. I am not mentally prepared for it and I don’t think that I will ever be fit for it also I don’t want to.
There are huge responsibilities if I am a doctor. I can’t handle anyones death. I won’t be able to handle it if by mistake someone dies because of my wrong decision. Or any reason if someone dies and I am not being able to save someone that would forever leave me with guilt. I don’t know how other doctors deal with it. But I can’t do it. How do I face the dead patients family and most of the time patients family do blame the doctor for it. Moreover, it’s stressful to handle humans life. I am very emotional person it’s not my cup of tea.
The guilt will eat me inside and I may never recover from it. I would not like to be responsible for someone’s life. Like in other jobs I can make mistakes but in this term of being a doctor if something goes wrong it can never be undone. Being a doctor will earn me lots of respect but also it can bring depression for me. One day at hospital I have seen a doctor searching things on computer about medical health issues and he didn’t have enough knowledge so, he was searching about it. It was very shocking to me because they are expected to have knowledges about everything. I know why my grandmother wants me to become a doctor because of the big amount of money. But I don’t intend to do it for the money.
If I want to do something I must give my 100% and if it’s something that I don’t have any interest in then how can I give my best performance. Also it’s a serious issue, being a doctor is not a child’s play. Of course, money is important in life and it plays a great role in our life. But it doesn’t mean I will do any kind of work just because I need money to live.
I would like to go for a job where I am being respected and salary given due to my work capability. I have no greed and no interest to fulfil someone else’s dream when mine is different. I think we all should do a job that we are interested in and never try to do something else because of someone else. Which can bring a bad result and regret for that forever. Choosing a career wisely is very important for one to become successful. My purpose is not to become rich but to live my life with peace. I can’t just do anything for money obviously I will try to survive by doing a job that is suitable and comfortable for me.
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