I am my constant, you know. We as individuals are the only constant things in our lives, it doesn't matter what happens, we will always be here in flesh and spirit. It is why I don't play with myself, I am always particular about protecting myself, because I am my soldier and I need to be well enough to keep fighting for myself. It would be nice to not have to fight though, to not have to always live on the edge, looking over my shoulder and making sure my mind isn't trying to kill me.
I think it is important to keep getting to know ourselves and to place no limitations on the many lives we could live. We should be more open to changes and self evolution, to always look at ourselves with grace. I don't like to box myself or restrict myself to labels of any sort.
I am simply a person. Before anything else I am a human being. I am someone who likes what they like at the moment and aware that I could wake up the next day and feel completely different. I am also open to to influence from externalities, both positive and negative because I'm certainly not interested in playing it safe, people are amazing we are here to teach and influence each other.
I am always striving to attain higher levels of consciousness rooted in self awareness. I know I'm complex and often misunderstood on a large scale but I know my heart. While I like to be clear and heard, I really don't care whether or not I'm always understood because people can only view you from their own lenses and there's little anyone can do about that.
PERSPECTIVE is a game I love to play. In fact, perspective is the game changer, I always try to stay open to seeing and understanding things differently. I am in Igbo girl, and we have a saying that goes: anaghi akwu ofu ebe ekiri mmonwu. It means you don;t stand at one spot to observe the display of a masquerade. You gotta keep moving to experience all of its gallivanting, dancing and all the drama involved. There is always a different perspective, you just have to keep your mind open.
I've had my fair share of living small, shrinking myself to accommodate people but I let go of all that a while ago and now the only thing I'm interested in being is myself, in all my humanness and godliness. I am constantly learning my weaknesses and strengths and I accept and welcome them all. I know I cannot be a good person by everyone's standards.
I understand I am different in a lot of ways but that's what adds to my essence as a person. We are all different and our differences are at the core of our existence and it makes no sense that we spend so much time fighting it. We are all born and embedded with differences and there should be no such thing as 'NORMAL'. I encourage us to embrace and celebrate our differences more. It makes no sense that we spend so much time judging and hating others for behaving differently, for loving differently, look and talking differently or whatever.
My faith and spirituality is one instance where I've faced a lot of resistance. I decided to flow with a believe system of my choosing and that didn't sit well with a lot people who are kinda closed minded. The most heartbreaking one has to be when I told my closest friend then and they called me diabolic and asked me to keep my practice away from them. About a year later when their mind opened up, they claimed to not remember saying that but I haven't forgotten.
I have lost a few friends for being too wild for their liking or just too intense. Lol. It is crazy. In about a couple of my past romantic relationships, I knew deep down we wouldn't 'work out' because of our spiritual and religious differences. Not from my end, I'm only ever interested in the decency, kindness and their quality of life as a person; but on their end.
They loved me and everything(or so they claimed) but they never really made peace with my differences. Well, I don't care about acceptance because it is no one's place to validate my existence by accepting me or not judging me. Who do you think you are?
I'll never change who I am, especially not for the sake of being chosen or picked by someone. If your mind cannot conceive a life outside your won, an existence and way of life different from yours, then we have no mutual place.
ULTIMATELY, the quality of our lives reflects on our interactions and relationships with people. We end up projecting how we see ourselves on others and that's why it it is crucial to see ourselves in an honest and genuine light.
I am everything I say I am, because I said so and that isn't up for debate.
I have added a couple selfies of my ever beautiful self for your viewing pleasure.
Thank you for stopping by reader, I hope this was worth your while. Stay sane.
Love. ❤️
