What a post!
We are like sine wave. We feel good at peak and we feel bad at bottom. These are two extreme points where we lose control.
When we feel really good we ignore other things. We just enjoy the moment, we laugh a lot. It's AWESOME!
When we feel bad we just can't do anything right. We can't focus, we make stupid mistakes not only in games. But when we are at the bottom we have a lot of time to think about future. If future not looks bright we think how change things. Is not easy it takes many time to realize that we can't be here in the bottom forever.
Sometimes it is small thing which make you smile. And this could be start of the recover phase.
Good that you know that you are in bottom phase. I hope you will not spent much time during this phase. But first step is to know that what you doing is not good for you.
I wish you quick comeback and 10 lvl, stay strong! 💪
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