This is the result of an illustration I did with a mix of sharpies and colour pencils.
Truthfully upon its completion, I was disgusted when I looked at it.
It is an emotive piece, that I used to release a lot of pent up anger, guilt and shame.
After staring at it for a while one day, I decided to digitally edit it. Nothing fancy just using a negative filter, to catch a different light.
Instantly it clicked, and I realized I had been viewing, not only my art but my entire existence from the wrong perspective.
I was the koi, who to the outside world was viewed as a complete mess, a failure and skatter brain.
But, admist the darkness and cold isolation, I was also growing and finding my way; recovering my essence.
I was breaking free of old limiting belief systems, and untangling from the web of indoctrination that had poisoned me.
Until finally...
I was free.
This is my Chaos Koi,
my creation, my teacher, my healer, & myself realized.
Peace!
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