oh @phoenixwren, I am sorry to hear you feel like that, it sucks and I am in the same boat as you and nothing ever seems good.
Bad days always seem more that the good days and I don't care what people say either when it comes to their potrail over things.

Regarding the food situation, have you thought about asking a food bank to help you. we have church run groups over in the UK and as long as you get someone to contact them for you and say you don't have any they help out. I have used the food bank once a month for the last 2 years.

Regarding your electric bill, contact your supplier and ask them to put you on a pre payment meter, and add the debt to that, so when you top up 10$ they take $2 for debt.
I nearly had to go bankrupt because of owing the energy suppliers over a £1000, I looked for help on line and found out my human rights. they can't just cut you off and they have to find a solution to meet both of your needs.

Just a few ideas that I can put forward to you. and I hope that your day gets better.

My mum used to say a problem shared is a problem halved. I am hoping that with what I have put helps you.

God bless. and stay safe