So when I was in therapy a thing my therapist reccomeneded for me for goals is to make them around things I can control.

Hence my goals on hive tend to be more "Read and comment at least a few times a week" and "post at least once a week" (Neither of which I've done every week but most weeks so it's a win) rather than 'Get X amount of votes" (which honestly isn't a great metric anyway) or "Build up X amount of vote power'

sorry to hear you've had so many setbacks though. i think a lot of us are feeling that. Between the economy being a mess in a lot of places and life just happening, it's rough.