-I felt my sorrow being lost an unknown holes of earth in a short time,like the song that was made by "Dream Theather" for 2 hours at 23:42 last night.Song name was "Acid Rain"...Actually i was only the effect of the rhythm...Otherwise i am happy,of course...I just spend a few hours for myself but either the same song plays in a few hours or it would finish as it started...As non-directional as sorrow,looping melody(partially)...i can bear it ....it doesn't work but i can keep on...
-Song shifts into an another one...Music is just like saying "if he wants to go,he can."...["Pink Floyd-Hey You"]....Record of the song is as ignoble as the dreams that i imagine...As if it is broken,comes from deep,so i switch the volume up...Vocalist sings "Can you help me?"...while wiping his crying eyes...no,no..!! i do not want to listen this song anymore...I can not feel the effortlessness of the turning inside out my life but i do also not want help anymore...
-Right now...It looks like the "Radiohead-Street Spirit" is the next song...And suddenly i remember the clip of this song...In a time that i feel just like old days,i achieve to catch its trousers of the lyrics with a hoarse voice that is sung "Immerse your soul in love"..."Yes, i immersed my soul in love,and then?"i ask...But it finishes...Something is missing...I listen the song again and again...And then i fall the pit of loneliness which is smelt despair...Because there is no answer...Whoever the writer of this song wrote this song,thought,or lived it where i have just stiched...I get bored again....
-"Dream Theater-Space Dye Vest"...It happens as same as before again ,i can't understand how i have fallen in such a deaf world suddenly and i think i feel the song when it is the fourth time of playing...
Exactly in 6:06 minutes of this song...i reach the perfection of the forgetting everything...Somehow there is no one takes my guilties on...So i start to enjoy forgetting for this reason,but song starts to play again...As i began to think that i have to make my life philosophy the song lyrics "and i will smile and i will learn to pretend.",the same song says "it is not the end that i want"....You are walking around at the far corners of my brain with your presence and absence....i don't want to stop music...but i can't stand the noise anymore, as if my mind is under of narcossis...then suddenly ;
-"Anathema-Transacoustic" comes to help me...It is the most abrasive instrumental song that i have ever listened...routine but unsteady and different as well...like the phone calls without answers...like the robotic voice of the telesecretary...I can forward it because it is not a chatterer...i can kill the time with my anger...I know what the waiting is ...i know it has played for over 2 hours and i have known a lot of things for over 2 hours...For this reason i love this song and i love you too, the guy who assured me to know this song...
-Again Anathema..."Flying"...Just he instrumental part of the song could convert all movies colors from colorful to black and white...I want a place inside of the song so i've taken out the chorus...Losing of things makes beauties visible,doesn't it?...I can't understand my wish of sobbing...because of the lyrics or the atmosphere?..And the sun rises /sets with the most drunk song ever...Nobody knows...
-"Gun N'Roses-Don't Cry"...i will appeal the nearest Police Station because of the people who i though about while listening this song...While thinking where we can go if being not stayed...I feel afraid of talking to my old friend who suggested me this song...I think he/she make me feel shame of hating with his/her absence...Even if i like...the song and its emotional side....And then i disappeared...I apoligized myself because of the sentences which i had written and then had erased...
Dear Steemian friends
I wrote this article 8 years ago and it has songs that i love,thought and feelings about these songs while listening.
I hope you will enjoy this...
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