Sending love to you and your mom... My mom's birthday is on the 26th as well, different month... But, couldn't help notice that.

Reading your post I noticed a lot of similarities in my own life, my mother is a lot more spiritual than you described your mom, kind of like the opposite in some ways but me and her have still had problems and what you said here resonates a lot.

There is much wisdom to suggest that when something grates on our nerves, it's a reflection of something we don't care for, in ourselves.

The issues I have with her I realize are issues I have with myself. Maybe not 100%, but like... at least 90% Or more. And, I've been realizing that more and more not just with her but with virtually everyone...

Most of my frustration with the world is truly frustration with myself and not knowing how to perceive, understand or navigate life in a more healthy way.

Thanks for the thought provoking read! Best wishes.