The beauty of the lake unparalleled
To think of the darkness in which I have dwelled
It's gorgeous out here it's 50 degrees
Accompanied by the occasional sneeze
Am I a loner?
I'm not quite sure
All I really know is that I must endure
Unless I am to perish
To lose memory of all I cherish
I may not make the wisest choices
At times I hear the others' voices
As I've said before I do have regrets
But my life isn't fucking over yet
Sometimes it feels like it is my chest that hurts
Sometimes it feels like I've not long on this earth
So majestic
Yet polluted with fear
To their carbon copy mold
I shall not adhere
You judge me
You perceive me wrong
Something I have known
All along
So why do I still call you friend?
Somewhere so deep in my head?
Because like attracts like
All my friends have been crazy
How can I judge you?
I was just a spiritual baby
No one's really here to save me
So in conclusion I'm living in the moment
Trying to suppress all the past torment
Yet it has it's means of creeping in
Forgive me Allfather
For I hath sinned
I could say I never win
A part of me feels I have to
But when look so deep within
I realize I must rid myself of all I'm attached to
I will combat you
If you get on my nerves
But not in the physical realm
You can self-actualize
But you must take the helm
Stop asking me questions
Please stop the projections
I try to be nice
But this time I'm not asking twice
I'm torn between my vice
And the notion of sacrifice
To be precise
Thank you creation force
For giving me another day
Another chance to
Live life in my way
I do pray
But I won't say your words
Reading from a book of rituals
Is nothing more than absurd
I've a lot of chapters I must admit are blurred
But half of the chapters
Have not yet occurred
Within myself this I have stirred
This schism
A constant duality
I choose the most sane means of insanity
I create my own reality
I know you cant believe it true
With all due respect
That's why I stopped listening to you
Freedom is that which I pursue
But I pursue it in my own way
Never again shall you be in control of my day
I walked away
