That's pretty specific for a phobia but I understand, personally the thing that scares me is folks who take people's tax money as payment for lying to people (#politicians [I know they have a mandate, but that's kind of the problem when all they care about is winning their next election at all costs {but I don't know, maybe German politicians are better than the ones here<?>}]). I'm sorry if I upset you though, that wasn't my intention.
Who is this think tank person who scared you? And how did they set such a bad example of wanting to do the right thing? There must be a story there. But I don't think the person you described sounds anything like me though. I'm not rich or powerful, I've never even had much ambition for such things. I made the website because I was bored. And I wrote the article here because I wanted to invite people to use the site.
Anyway, I'm sorry for bothering you. Let's be friends.