I feel the same way, I can relate to you, that' s why sometimes it's better for me to stay at home rather than go out because there are things that i want to buy but i can't afford and it hurts. And there are times that my children go with me, and they want me to buy toys for the, I just cry silently. It's ok if they choose cheap, but no, they will choose an expensive one and our income is good for food only.