Love
Seeing the person and feeling happy, no matter whether he/she knows you or not, loves back or not, cares at all or not. If you love someone set him/her free. Sound so true. If the person is yours she/he will either not leave at all or will come back pretty soon. In any case granting freedom is a huge illustration of love. It’s putting the wishes of the one you love above yours.
Speaking without words, feeling without specifically defined emotions, crying without tears and smiling with eyes only…
So many special means of communication to make things heard/felt and understood. Look in the eyes, insignificant gestures and different moves can tell it all. Sharing – something special, starting from a simple nickname till precious moments of happiness, sadness and emotional or physical orgasms. Wanting him/her to be close to you even though the brain tells that it will be much better without.
Sex
Burning touches, soft tongue, pressing bodies…
Electric impulses running across all body… Slight fever.
Familiar smell and taste and impatiently nervous moves.
Touches all over, unzipping, undressing….
Hands, here and there…. everywhere
Sighs, bites and scratches on the back.
Hugs, your head on his shoulder and tender feeling of warmth that fills you up...
Cigarette and few sips of water.
Break up
Tears, sadness, disappointment…
Words, questions, answers… at some point shouts and desperate, illogical phrases.
Sending all his presents and torn photos to the garbage.
Freedom, careless and light feeling.
Unanswered calls, emails, voice mails and all possible other kind of mails…
And unexplainable anger towards the world, love, destiny and your stupid state at the point you met him. Anger You want to shout at the top of your lungs.
You want to crash, destroy and get revenge.
The frustration fills up your chest and you want to let it out in any possible way and free yourself.
You want to turn back the time in order not to be in such a situation.
Forgiveness
It didn’t work out but it was no one’s fault. No one to blame, no one to assign as responsible.
Life is about experiences like this, it’s about trying, feeling, burning and also losing.
Time heals and at some point you erase him from your dreams, memories and kick out from your heart and soul.
At some point you forget and forgive.
Finally you are truly free!!!
New Love
Attractive stranger with sparkles in his eyes…
New looks, warm feelings, compliments, and stupidly embarrassing blushing…
Thoughts filled with him, pretending not to notice, but trying to get reasons to connect. Even his green Skype sign makes you excited.
Careful and very slow two of you get closer…. Emotionally first… physically next…
And this strange feeling that this time it’s for real. The warm calmness, no need to pretend... with him you are yourself.
Discovering him you are discovering yourself… and he teaches you to love though he too doesn’t know how.