Sorry to hear about your 'multiple' disappointments @cmp2020 . I just now sort of stumbled upon this post and accidentally up-voted, not realizing that it was eight days old.

You are right to have felt 'slighted' and 'punished' for expressing your thoughts in the way you did during that initial fiasco with Justin Sun taking over Steemit. Some may feel that the powers behind Hive who excluded you from the initial airdrop was 'not' vindictive, but it certainly appears malevolent .

I suspect that, the right people will reconsider their actions in the near future, and grant the airdrop you deserve. Perhaps 'compassion' will seep into their hardened hearts, allowing for a softening and outpouring of forgiveness?

The pain of depression is no stranger to me, so I can certainly sense what you are experiencing now as a result. That is a pain which, now at seventy years of age, lays behind me (fortunately) in the settling dust of memories.

You 'deserve' happiness...you 'deserve' opportunities to express yourself freely and creatively...to enjoy that of which you felt promised (Prom...etc.) Whatever it is that may be taken from you during these times, will in the future, be a mere melancholy memory once you've achieved the success surely awaiting you.

You appear to be fairly well grounded spiritually from what little I've only recently got to see of you on Steemit. For that reason, there is probably nothing more I can add to the uplifting words of support around you at this time. We both know of a mysteriously, Divine, omnipotent power to find solace within when needed.

Sorry if my reply might have become longgggggg and excessive in scope, but I'm a somewhat crazy old man, who has been awake all night writing and my brain is probably fried by now :>\

Oh...by the way...your Steem has not been taken from you according to what I see, it was just not matched with 'Hive'. I suspect you already know that; just thought I'd mention it because of something you wrote above (which I might have misinterpreted)

Feel free to express yourself in Free Speech Community, any time you wish, in whatever way you choose here on Hive or on Steemit. /trending/hive-168088 (Hope I got that link right...)

Be well...Stay well, my friend.