Have you ever sat down alone in your comfort zone lost in thoughts? Reminiscing about days you wish never existed? sitting all cuddled up on the floor with body colliding with the wall? or confined in a room alone?
She has always wanted to clean her footprints printed boldly in her past. She was a terrible person back then.
Well this is her story?
“I’ve always been looked down at, never been considered useful but instead worthless. I was neglected by the world and so wanted to do everything to be in it. So... I decided that if the world can’t come to me then I’ll go to it. Instead of choosing my friends which I never had from the start, I let them choose me, how? my mode of dressing changed drastically thereby attracting its type to me, classes of bad girls, chain-smoker’, heavy drinkers, party riders and its likes. This very day, some groups of girls approached me, they looked pretty cool in a bad way but I liked it cos they actually noticed me. I was asked to join their group cos they already liked me which I instantly agreed without taking a breath. I was toured like never before, we went to clubs, I was taught how to smoke and drink alcohol. It was a horrible start cos I never knew how to take this stuffs before I knew them but nevertheless I loved it... I grew into someone I didn’t know and would never know...I let this girls change me so much. I started piercing my skin to make them not want to drop me... I did everything I was told without hesitating... o man I was horrible.
This particular day I was taken to a house party.it was nice and fun... they all came with their boyfriends except me cos I didn’t have one, so I went to the bar to get myself a drink and maybe relax there viewing everything going on there. I was there for about 5min until I was approached by a very spectacular being. I must say he looked really handsome and decent to be in this kind of party but I didn’t let him read that I was captivated by him. He requested for a drink for him and I ...then he asked to sit beside me then he immediately started a conversation. He asked of my name which I told him and he told me his. I admit he was really funny and kept me company. It started getting too loud so we looked for a quiet room to stay. He was too nice and it seemed too good to be true, I said to myself I have found the one. While on the bed he asked to get me another drink since he noticed I have finished my glass, so I said yes, he went down to get another which was where my mistake started. He came back with it and handed it over to me, I drank it and by the time I knew it I had passed out and by the time I gained consciousness I discovered had lost my virginity. He raped me. I cried out my eyes out waking him up, he slapped me and dressed up leaving me behind. That was my worst experience. I dressed up and went down, told my friend I was sick and had to go home. They agreed and so I left that night.
The next day when I went to meet my girlfriend I saw him with them and I acted like I didn’t know him. And to my greatest surprise while walking up to them they all looked at me laughing and that was the time I noticed that he was sent by them to rape me. I ran away in tears.
Walking down the street I bumped into a guy, I said sorry but walked out cos this time I trusted no one. He ran to catch up with me, I didn’t stop but he didn’t give up. For days he kept on stalking me until I had no option but to give him a listening ear he was nice but I didn’t fall for it this time. Days went on and days turned into weeks and weeks turned into months, he told me about himself, everything I needed to know and more but I never reciprocated it, even though I wanted to where would I start from telling him, even still he never changed his attitude towards me. I talked to myself saying this could be his own way of getting what he wanted but he proved me wrong. He invited me over and to my greatest surprise he cooked, we ate, played and it was time to be serious. He wanted to know about me, then I said within me
I won’t hide it no more, whatever would happen would happen so I told him everything, I was moved to tears. He gave me a listening ear and a shoulder to cry on, he accepted it and he grew nicer than ever and closer to me than ever. He asked me out publicly few weeks later and now I thank God for sending him my path. Maybe I should have been patient from the start.