I don't think the issue is with you at all. The community itself is pretty stale as an entity, to be honest. I mean the most exciting things in this community have been @blanchy and @talesfrmthecrypt's contests and of course the FPL which includes the aforementioned two. I remember suggesting a few ideas when I started writing here which died down quickly.

People take decentralized to mean no unity and vision which is far from the case. I run a comedy community myself, and we had a time period where we were outdoing STP in terms of pending rewards and interactions despite having 10% of the number of members. I am not exaggerating when I say that I can bring that back with a Thursday announcement.

It's too bad your enthusiasm was beaten out of you, figuratively speaking of course. But, I guess this is what happens when a stoppable force meets an immovable object.