Dude, I'm so sorry for that frustration with the market, it's a roller coaster that makes us all dizzy! You, instead of weight, brought a smile to my face, how well I understand you! But I greatly admire how you use writing to process it all, that ‘zoom out’ is so necessary.

Your reflections are invaluable, much more than any trade, but beware of somatizing them. May, these six months bring favourable winds for HIVE and the rest. In the meantime, keep writing, it's your superpower, and it helps many! Hang in there, you're not alone in this, be happy…