It is past the mid night, quarter to two, when I am starting writing this post. After finding about the dreemport & Ecency third week’s first challenge, I kept on thinking how to demonstrate love to myself in a way that would be appealing to the readers. I didn’t come up with an idea for a write up that would sound amazing and perfect. My mind kept on struggling then there came a voice from my heart, “Heyyyy, it is about love to yourself. How can you love yourself when you will keep on struggling to meet the requirements and desires of others. Love yourself unconditionally. Love yourself the same way you think others deserve to be loved. Love yourself the way you are without putting the pressure on you being an ideal. For loving yourself you need not to be perfect but positive.”
Finally, I decided to bring forth whatever comes out of my heart in a flow. Lol. I think the pipe line is choked at some places; that’s why the flow is not fluent 😂. (Oh, how I forgot the instruction of being not sarcastic 🙈)
Okay, I am quite serious now. I knew it would be difficult for me to express love to myself, but I didn’t know that it would be this much difficult. Huuuuuh! Telling you the truth, I feel awkward when somebody gives me compliment. I don’t really know how to take them and respond to them. At times, I feel like those compliments are an exaggeration of my actions or traits (or whatever). Perhaps, I am too harsh on me. I am someone who beats herself when she accomplishes 9/10 tasks for her to-do list. Instead of feeling like a success on performing 9, I feel failure for not doing 1. I am someone who puts extra tasks in her responsibilities and then forgets herself in the fulfilment of those duties. If some of those duties aren’t performed well, regret and sorrowfulness surrounds me. In such a situation, I felt like the contest by 
Now, I think I can move forward to answer the questions asked by snook.
For a long time, I have been craving for a place where I can attain solitude. I want to have an environment where I can perform the activities I love with complete focus without any distraction and voices in the head.
I feel happy when I read a book or complete certain writing. I feel happy when I paint or prepare an art piece. I feel happy when I decorate, organize, clean and/or rearrange my surroundings. Yes, these actions make me feel happy because they are the expression of my inner self. These are the activities that nourish my soul. However, I would only feel happiness doing them if I have solitude.
Something positive about me is that I can work both ways comfortably, alone and as part of a team. Depending on my position in the team I can bring many positive traits to it. As a leader, I bring organization and management to the task. A long with it, I try to take into account the needs of all the members and allot them task according to their capacities. Also, I try to motivate my team and let them see things in a positive light. As a member of the team, I demonstrate responsibility by completing the required task on time.
Once a cousin of mine said to me why I do not try to prove myself right in an argument. She was like it is not good to quit an argument without defending oneself.
I am someone who avoids falling into arguments often. Life is not about proving right or wrong all the time. If someone has an opinion or liking why I should argue. Everyone is free. Even if someone is thinking negative about me, I can’t change the opinion via debate. So, why to waste my energy doing this.
Another thing that people deem negative in me is that I do not react to things with emotions. I don’t react to things with active emotions do not mean that I lack emotions. By not reacting instantly I get a chance to evaluate the circumstances logically. This way, I can find the solution instead of ranting uselessly
The whole Hive is a positive surprise to me. Before being on Hive, I was on another platform which came to an end. After the death of the platform, I was feeling homeless. Then with the guide of Dreemport’s team I found my way to Hive and soon I realized that the failure of the previous platform was a blessing in disguise for me. Hive offers better opportunities to grow as a writer. There are surplus contest on various topics that keep the spirit for writing high.
The community based writing system on Hive is quite healthy in terms of improving my expression and writing skills. I find the right audience for the content I write. Also, I easily find the content of my interest to read and relate with.
One of the most beautiful feeling on earth is the feeling of being heard. Hive gives this very feeling. Hive provides me a vent for my emotions and feelings. When I get the comments of my fellows, it broadens my vision about my circumstances. Sometimes I find the solution to my problems. Sometimes, I find the motivation. In this way, Hive has a great impact on my life.
The monetary benefit attached to Hive cannot be overlooked. Because of Hive, it became possible for me to buy things that I had long been desiring to purchase, including my new mobile.
I once participated in a contest by Dreemport where I got surprise I didn’t think of. I won 87 HBD which is quite a good amount in my currency. It was the unexpected goodie that came my way via Hive.
Above all, being on Hive gives me a feeling of worthiness and usefulness. I feel like making an impact on others lives in my own small ways. Also, the positive people with whom I am connected because of Hive have a lot to do in filling my life with positivity in general. I am elated to be a part of this wonderful platform
At the end, I would like to thank the amazing souls behind organizing this contest and spreading positive vibes all around.
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