Good morning dear friends. This is me writing with no coordination because for days, I have not been able to gather the words to share my heart.
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To be a Nigerian and to exist in this country is to live with so much rage, anger and fear, daily.
There is a complete break down of law and order in Nigeria. A total breakdown and this is not normal. What is currently happening is madness. This is not life. There is nothing sane about us right now.
What is the value of a human life in Nigeria? Nothing. What dignity comes with being a Nigerian?
Tears in the land...
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From the North to the South to the East and to the West of Nigeria, blood flows on every soil. How does one exist comfortably when there is no modicum of security or safety? Where all it takes to be cut off from the living is to be at the right wrong place at the right time or the right place at the wrong time? Is this life?
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We have a government for a reason. All the philosophical and sociological explanations for governance in human settings points to one main reason; security and the other, welfare. What is the essence of this government if they fail in their first, basic and primary duty to the people they govern? What are we doing? When are we going to wake up and demand justice?
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Let me make this very personal. Two nights ago after the Nigerian match, I wept into the morning on my bed. It wasn't about our exit because I knew that at some point we were going to be out, but I cried because the one thing I was holding onto, giving me a ray of superficial hope in this country was taken away from me. It was taken away from me. I tried shrugging it off but this hurt went so deep that I mourned for us. I have never felt such pain from feeling so helpless and hopeless. I cried till I felt a physical ache around my chest region.
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I have had a hard time sleeping at night because my mind is restless. I decided to finally confront my fears and watch the videos and view the pictures of our brothers, sisters, children, mothers, fathers friends that were slaughtered in exchange for the lives of cows, cows people, - and I have been haunted in ways I can't explain. For God's sake, are we going to let this continue? Nigerians, are we going to let this continue? This is on me and you.
Where is the value for human lives? Where is the value for your life and mine?
I am struggling to write this because I don't know where to start from.
Nobody is coming to save us. The sad part is nobody is coming to save us except us. And this scares me. We are spiraling into something so ugly and sinister and inhumane. Every corner right now is becoming something so dangerous, something we read about. This is happening in my time. Oh my God!
I have shared my heart with a few friends. I have sought answers on what we can do but everyone is in despair, the fear is so tangible I can taste it on my tongue.
Now more than ever, we should not keep silent or be distracted. Please, if you are in Uyo and you want to be a part of an assembly to add your voice, fears and anything else on the state of Nigeria, please do let me know. I don't know what else to do except organize a few of us this Saturday. This is impromptu I know but please do let me know if you will participate in this assembly.
I will be back when I can gather all of my thoughts.
