Well, at nearly 70, wanting this ghastly production We watch in the literal world stage to emerge in glorious ways, envisioning it all My life and standing here now horrified that what I see is nigh the antithesis...

Working two decades and more to do all I can to bring it forth...

I ponder being able to "make real" what I want.

To be in the condition I am in - I don't want to offer details, but suffice it to say You would be horrified to a probability approaching 100% - and think I somehow chose this mess just baffles Me.

Please don't go on about "I need to learn lessons," or "You chose this before You were born."  I AM and I can assure You, I did not choose this.  This is a co-creation of the Now, and I am working to co-create better, not just for Me, but for Humanity on Our planet.

Really wish I could spend My time on the porch of a cabin in the woods near a sparkling stream with a feline by My side while everyOne else is free to do any Ethical thing They choose, living richly.

Targeted Individual  (article):  @amaterasusolar/targeted-individual